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I have news for you. You don’t know me, You don’t know anything. You might know what people say, or even what you think. but there is a whole different side, a different point of view. This is my point of view on the world, on my life, on the people around me. Everything I post and reblog, means something. A memory, the way I feel, the way I’ve felt, a song that makes me happy-sad-mad or that I just like, a quote that makes me feel something. Something that makes me feel like I’m not alone, that there is people who have stuff in common with me. That I’m not crazy, or If I am, It’s okay. ‘Cause I’m not the only one.

I’m Alexandria, I go by Alex or lil crazy. I live in Tulsa stupid ass Oklahoma. My life kinda sucks, I lost a lot of people that I was close too, It’s taking a while to find real friends. I’ve been depressed, I’ve cut, I’ve done drugs, and I’ve been to Hell and back. I wouldn’t be alive with out Hayden and Ethan, and since then they have proved to me that live is worth living. My life hasn’t been perfect but I’m happy. 

I’m dating this amazing guy, Colton Wayne Palmer, and I’m starting to fall for him…<3

He is my everything, and so much more. He is the reason why I wake up, the excuse I use so I don’t go to sleep. The reason why I am happy. He is so amazing. He treats me better than anyone else. He takes my breath away, and leaves my heart racing. He gets along with my family, that’s more than anyone else has ever tried. He makes me a better person. I would do anything I could for him. If I didn’t know better I would think he made the sun, the moon, the stars, and all the stuff inbetween. We have so much in common, It’s like he was made for me. I’d like to think we are. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. No matter what. I don’t care how much we fight, I don’t care about his past, I don’t care If he makes bad desions. As long as he is willing to fight for me..like I’m willing to fight for him. I will. As long as he wants me here, I will be. I need him. Without him I would be lost. He showed me the way to happiness. He gave me something I have been longing for, for as long as I can remember. He gave me what I needed. Him. Basically what I am saying is..I’m in love with Colton Wayne Palmer.<3

I am a new me, the old me is dead and gone. I’m not here to please you, I am here because I deserve to be here. I found a way to hell, and I fought my way back. I lost so many friends, I can’t even remember all the names. Everyday I struggle to be happy, and at the end of that day, I am happy. With who I am, What I’ve done, and Where I’ve been.

Everything happens for a reason, you just have to figure out why. 

Everyone deserves a second chance, just don’t be stupid and give out more than what they deserve. 

You can’t fix the past, or change it. You just pick yourself up, and keep moving. 

It’s going to hurt for a long time, you just have to not let the hurt get to you. 

I’ve learned so much my almost 17 years of living. I wouldn’t take back anything that’s happen. I know life can be hard, it can be hell, but I truly believe it gets better. 

I always come back to this page and add more. I’ve had a Tumblr for almost 3 years now. My life, it doesn’t suck anymore. I’m happy. Happier than I’ve been in a long time in these past 9 months. 

I’ve changed, a lot. I left my high school, so I can do online school, So i can get my credits up and actually graduate. I don’t want to be a drop out. I lost pretty much all my friends. The ones I was close to. After I left, No one tried to talk to me really. It was like I didn’t exist. All but one, My best friend, my boyfriend, the guy I want to spend forever with. 

That’s how you see who really cares about you. And I’m glad I can see now. 

Now I have to make Real friends who will stay and not leave because I’m not in school with them.